*sob*

Do you ever get the feeling of bursting into tears uncontrollably, and without fully knowing why?

I do.

It almost happened at the CCP last week. I told my seatmate about my being on the verge of crying, and she thought I was being emotional about the state of the Creative Industry in the Philippines 'Nakakalungkot naman kasi talaga eh,' she told me. I told her it wasn't that, but I did not explain further.

It almost happened yesterday afternoon while watching the t.v. station break during the cheerdance competition. It almost happened several times in front of the computer while working.

It almost happened in the Rizal Theater while Nico and I watched Bianca play a funny role at a Tanghalang Ateneo production.

It finally happened last night, in the car at the AdMU parking lot. Nico gave me a worried look (he noticed I was unusually down at the time) and kept asking me what's wrong.

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(Never ask me what's wrong when I'm on the verge. "What's wrong" and "Are you okay?" will simply open the tearducts and prompt more questions to which I have no answers.)

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I was fine by the time we arrived at Tia Maria's for late dinner. We talked, ate, we drank and we ate some more. Then I took home the leftover nachos and zombie.

I guess I just needed a good cry.

*sigh*