I'm waiting (hooo-ooo-ooo)

with nothing to do

I'm wai-hey-aiting

just waiting on you.



(The Rentals)

More weird dreams.

Dahil tinatamad akong gumawa ng narrative account, copy-paste ko na lang 'yung online conversation namin ni Nico which started 30 minutes ago (and is still ongoing). Hehehe...

[snip]

Af says:

hi girlfriend! :)

starshuffler says:

hi

Af says:

:)

Af says:

What's up, baby?

starshuffler says:

nothing much. weird intramuros dream, something i had before but weirder.

Af says:

you've had an intramuros dream before?

Af says:

kababangon mo lang ba?

starshuffler says:

kalalunch ko pa lang

starshuffler says:

yeah but weird intramuros dream. ngayon ko nga lang naalala na i had it before.

starshuffler says:

it was one of those forgotten dreams na nagrecur

Af says:

how scury!

Af says:

anung nangyari?

starshuffler says:

wala. i was meeting up friends sa intramuros. kelangan sumakay ng pedicab.

starshuffler says:

tas may 'adult' event sa mcdo. parang rave party na ewan na invitation only tas may mga candy bars that serve as entrance tickets

starshuffler says:

ang rule kelangan kainin mo dun para di ka paalisin

Af says:

???

Af says:

'adult' event?

starshuffler says:

tas yung intramuros, may imimeet ako dun. yung meeting place, yun yung recurring part

starshuffler says:

(parang rave party nga-- labo, di ba? sa mcdo, of all places)

starshuffler says:

may arches pa na area. i remember my other dream, may white stargazers pa sa gardens

Af says:

hehe, well new look na naman yung mcdo ngayon. mas mature na, hehe.

starshuffler says:

tas tumatakbo ako.

starshuffler says:

bumaba ako sa pedicab way before my stop so i had to run the rest of the way

starshuffler says:

di ako sure kung alin yung nauna-- yung mcdo or yung intramuros.

Af says:

tapos sino yung imimeet mo?

starshuffler says:

siguro parang pelikula, yung nagse-segue between two scenes. but i was there in both

Af says:

ah, surreal, ah!

starshuffler says:

segue back and forth i mean

starshuffler says:

di ko maalala kung sino imi-meet ko. basta may gimik eh.

starshuffler says:

tas parang may humahabol sa akin or may hinahabol ako, hindi ako sure.

starshuffler says:

kaya rin ako tumatakbo

starshuffler says:

(i hate dreams in which i'm running)

Af says:

awww. pagod ka?

starshuffler says:

I guess. Parang nake-carry over yung pagod sa panaginip sa totoong buhay

Af says:

parang the matrix!

starshuffler says:

Tas i saw this guy shimmy up the arches. 'Yung umaakyat na gumagamit ng sideways na pwersa sa arch (think samson or bernardo carpio pose)

Af says:

hihi.

Af says:

baka may kini-crave ka lang from mcdo.

starshuffler says:

arches ng intramuros ha, hindi ng mcdo

Af says:

ah, ngyak.

Af says:

may mga horsie ba sa dream mo?

starshuffler says:

so umakyat yung guy. sumunod ako, hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakaakyat, basta andun na ako sa itaas at maraming mga nakatambay sa ledge

starshuffler says:

walang horsie, pero may naimagine akong maraming kabayo nung gising na ako, tumatakbo ng mabilis at nakasakay ako sa isa, bare-back. Pero sa imahinasyon ko, bata ako.

Af says:

awww! naiimagine kita. :) ang cute mo siguro.

starshuffler says:

nakakapit sa leeg ng kabayong sinasakyan ko

Af says:

hindi naman mabaho yung kabayo?

starshuffler says:

hindi kasama sa paggunita ko ang pang-amoy eh. fleeting image lang siya. sorry.

starshuffler says:

sorry na-DC ako twice

Af says:

i love you, Jovan. <3

starshuffler says:

anyway i remembered this guy up the ledge. he had two pairs of worn out ape socks on

Af says:

ape sock?

Af says:

socks?

starshuffler says:

but the weird thing about the guy was he didn't wear the socks like he's supposed to. He just put one on top of his foot and one below, and then he bound them to his feet

starshuffler says:

ape socks-- like the ones I have, with toes.

Af says:

ah.

Af says:

bound them with what?

starshuffler says:

well, tinali lang niya.

starshuffler says:

i'm guessing it's the same material as the socks.

starshuffler says:

ang labo!

starshuffler says:

so kita 'yung feet niya in between the socks.

Af says:

baka kasi related siya sa mcdonalds.

starshuffler says:

eh? what's that got to do with it?

Af says:

naka-"sandwich" yung feet niya.

starshuffler says:

kumain ka na ba ng lunch?

starshuffler says:

parang gutom ka pa eh.

[end snip]

Anubayun.

But I don't want to have *their* babies!

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Today is a day of surprises.

Or at least I hope it will be a day for *pleasant* surprises for the next 10 hours or more.

I don't talk about it much here, but I've been job/raket hunting lately. Today I woke up to a phone call from one of them companies, asking me to come over for my final interview. I know they have an awful long shortlist (strange phrase don't you think?) of people to talk to. Good luck to me.

***

Before my sleep was interrupted by that phone call, I was having dreams of surreal conversations. I don't remember most of them, but I do vaguely remember two settings: on the street- Joy, my long-time kabarkada; & over the phone- a certain 'Chandrina' (she sounded like Charms, maybe it was her-- you know how dreams screw you up that way).

The latter one was the one I was having when my mom called me to get the phone. I can only remember saying 'sandali...' audibly when I woke up.

The first one was odd and natural at the same time. I ran into Joy on the street and she told me she was 'on the family way'. Hey, kewl, etc., etc. and all those long-time-no-see & congratulations felicities. She was wearing blue denims and a maroon collared shirt-- the usual college clothes back in freshman year. I guess that disoriented me. I don't remember the last time I saw her wearing jeans (kasi laging naka-corporate lawyer attire siya). I got the time line screwed up so I didn't think she'd really have a kid at the time.

After answering the phone call downstairs, I went back to my bedroom to text Joy whom I haven't seen since she & Dino got married last December.

me: Hi Joy! I dreamt last night that I ran into u & u told me u were on the family way. Hehehe labo ko.

Joy: Hehehe! Hindi ka malabo. Psychic nga eh. I'm three months preggy na actually :-)

me: Wahahah! OMG! Congrats senyo! Ü

Joy: Tenks! Tagal na nating di nagkikita ano?! We should meet up soon with the rest of the party people. :)

Wow. Talk about cosmic. I guess that's a perfect reason to get together. I smell a baby shower coming up. :-)

***

Nico and I watched the PBA game yesterday (Talk 'n Txt vs Ginebra). Sayang we didn't get to see Sandwich perform (sa half time 'ata ng first game sila togs). We just arrived when Marc stepped out into the parking lot. Soon after, we saw Raims, Myrene & Atari (ang cute, ang kulet!).

Saya ng game, panalo Ginebra! Ang galing ni Caguioa. Ang saya ng daddy ni Nico hehehe...

Although there were a lot of annoying trashtalkers, there were funny moments as well. There's this old guy who's always there at Ginebra games. He kept on shouting at the TnT import: 'Honeycutt, you look like a zombies!!![sic]' Hahaha... Anlakas talaga ng boses niya, nasa lower box siya nakaupo, dinig na dinig namin sa ibaba.

Sayang nanood din pala si Mike D and Diegocas ng game. I found out from Kathy na mukhang haggard kagabi, di ko man lang nabati hehe... Hi Kathy!

***

Ayun. Story of my life. Shet ang babaw ko hehehe...

Who is your Idol?

After a particularly horrible early weekend experience (details of which I will not bother to recount), Nico & I decided to salvage the rest of it and went to my barkada's themed birthday party (a la American Idol-- Marnie and Istin even had white orchids in their hair for the Jasmine Trias look hahaha) last night @ a family KTV bar in Tomas Morato na ni-design ni Wilmer the birthday boy.

Yeah, kumanta kami ng kabaduyan at ng mga may katuturan naman na kanta. Naka-huling hirit pa si Nico ng 'Last Goodbye' ni Jeff Buckley at ng isang Backstreet Boys na kanta. Hahaha... (May listing dun ng '32 Flavors' by Alana Davis, pero try ninyo lang kantahin, nakakahaggard pala hahaha...)

Ang saya, kahit nakakahiyang kasama 'yung mga kaibigan ko sa videoke. Hehehe... Sayang lang hindi kami nagtagal kasi kailangan naming dumaan pa sa Ponkan kasi may jamming daw.

It turns out nanonood ang mga Ponkan peeps ng Conan the Barbarian on DVD, with colorful side comments and impromptu politically incorrect dialogues. Nakatulog si Nico (complete with sound effects) despite the noise and the bursts of laughter. Wawa naman, he was feeling under the weather the entire day.

Hindi na kami nakasunod sa Gasoline Alley. :-( (Sorry Chino & Zarah!!! How did it go?)

***

Balita ko 'tutugtog' daw ang Sandwich sa PBA today. Mapanood nga... :-)

Parang ang saya ah.

Hehehe... This pic is courtesy of Mikah's digicam & taken by Joon at the previous LFS gig @ Big Sky.

Commuting issues #97803: Do I look like an armrest to you?

Pheh. Some people have no respect for personal space at all (if such a thing exists in public transport). On my way home today (yes, I just got home from the Mandaluyong area-- I practically spent 30 minutes there-- that's less time than it took me to get there), I boarded a jeep (since it was still early and jeeps weren't hard to come by). As passengers come and go, some people prefer moving closer to the entrance any chance they get. I was sitting at the farthest end when this guy with his wife and kid shimmied alongside me. I guess he wanted my seat and thought it was okay to elbow me into thin air. I can feel my temper surging.

I sat there, trying to hold his weight with my already aching arm. If I moved it he would be hitting me in a very sensitive place. I don't know if he was doing it on purpose (and telling him so would be too presumptuous). Instead of raising a row I placed my shoulder bag underneath my arm a la clutch bag style to separate me from the offending passenger. To make the long story short, I stuck with it until I arrived at my stop.

Dapat binayaran ako ng jeepney driver, nag-sub ako bilang sandalan ng pasahero niya. Hmf.

Pabati lang po.

Belated happy birthday, JB! I don't know your new number so I wasn't able to text. (I asked Luis to send me your number but I guess he forgot hehe...) Oy, text mo ako!

Belated rin kay Joelle. Marami kayong may birthday kahapon. (I know at least one more person who doesn't deserve to be mentioned here hahaha...)

And happy birthday to Jett P, too.

Pwet de la Musique.

Tama nga ako. Sakit ng ulo at katawan itong event na ito.

Kasali raw kami, tas biglang hindi, tas biglang sige pwede ulit sumali ang Narda. Submit-submit ng mga requirements. Pre-prod meetings. Photo shoot. Tatlong beses pinalitan ang oras at ang venue ng performance. Wala akong access pass. Hassle ang parking. Ang daming tao. Akyat-manaog ako sa iba't ibang venue para maghabol ng tao. At pagdating ng alas-11 ng gabi na siyang call time namin, umulan ng uber-lakas at na-cancel ang palabas.

Buti na lang nakapanood ako ng isang banda sa Rock Stage (Boldstar).

Hindi pa natapos dun 'yung bad trip kong araw, pero hindi ko na ike-kwento rito.

Tae talaga.

***

A look at the bright side: I got to spend some time with my barkada. Nag-impromptu sleep-over kami after the Fete. Went home Sunday morning, spent the rest of the sunlit hours sleeping, straightened out some issues in the evening, ate late lunch-dinner, and went back to bed.

(At the rate things are going, I guess *anything* can be better than last Saturday.)

Special thanks go to my really good friends, Sel, Marnie, Troy and Osang. Thanks to Chinito and his friend as well. Jahe 'yun, alam ko, pero salamat talaga.

Ano raw?

Nakuha ko to sa blog ni Zarah. Hehe...

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Asus. Chenes.

Aray!

Putek ang sakit ng katawan ko! As in! Napagod kasi ako kahapon. May appointment ako sa Makati tas gig sa Big Sky kinagabihan. E ang dami kong dapat dalhin, magco-commute lang ako nun.

Buti nakasabay ako kay Nico from Makati (uyyy working boy!). At buti rin dala ko na 'yung stuff para sa gig, kasi natraffic kami kagabi on the way to QC, hindi ako aabot sa LFS ng maaga kung uuwi pa ako para kunin 'yung gamit. Ang sungit na namin kahapon dahil gutom at pagod.

Sulit naman all in all. Maraming pumunta sa gig kahit maraming kasabay na ibang gig. At 'yung mga pumunta sa LFS, pumunta rin ng Cambio launch and vice versa. Naks. :-)

***

Fete de la Musique na mamaya. Shet, panibagong sakit ng katawan ito! :-(

Gusto kong mag-spa!!! Arrrgh.

Self-dignity & respect for others.

Kulang na kulang tayo sa ganito. Nakakahiya kasi minsan guilty rin ako.

Kagabi nagpunta kami ni Nico sa 711 sa Project 3 para bumili ng roast beef hotdogs (panalo 'to, P20 lang!). Paglabas namin isang katerbang mga batang lansangan ang sumalubong sa amin, humihingi ng pera at 'yung di ko pa naubos na hotdog sa kamay ko.

Umiling ako sa kanila, sabi ko hindi. Alam ko naman na pag binigyan ko ng barya, ipinambibili nila ng rugby, o kaya ikina-kara-krus lang nila 'yun. (Ilang tao 'yung hinihingan nila ng kung anu-ano tuwing gabi?)

Pumasok ako sa kotse (dala ni Nico kotse ng nanay niya). May maliit na bata na sumisigaw ng 'ate, bantay' sa bintana ko. Bantay? E paalis na kami. Wala pa 'ata kaming 10 minuto dun. Sabi ko hindi.

Patuloy siyang sumisigaw, at may kasamang hampas sa pinto. Napasigaw ako ng 'hoy!' (hindi mashado dinig kasi nakasara pinto at bintana). Walang epekto. Tuloy pa rin ang paghampas. Napasigaw na si Nico.

Lumabas ako, napalakas ng konti 'yung boses ko, sabi ko 'Gusto mong magbantay, pero hinahampas mo 'yung sasakyan?!?' Humindi na ako ilang beses sa kanya eh, sana igalang naman niya 'yun. Hindi naman mahirap maintindihan ang salitang 'hindi', di ba?

Isinumbong ko sa guwardiya ng 711 'yung bata. Nakaalis na rin kami, sa tulong ng pag-alalay ng isang mas malaking bata. Binigyan siya ni Nico ng barya.

Di pa nakakalayo napaiyak ako sa inis. Inis sa sarili ko, inis sa batang makulit, inis sa magulang ng mga batang lansangan, inis sa gobyerno, inis dun sa mamang tumawid sa Aurora Boulevard, kahit may mataas na island sa gitna ng kalye na nilampasan niya sa isang lukso. Nahiya ako sa ginawa ko, kahit alam ko na tama 'yun sa tingin ko at that time. Hindi ko rin kasi masisi 'yung asal nung bata. E 'yun na 'yung kinagisnan niya. Sa tingin niya karapatan ang humingi sa mayayaman. At sa tingin niya, masama akong tao.

Tinanong ako ni Nico kung gusto kong bumalik. Sabi ko ayaw ko. Baka hanapin ko lang 'yung mga magulang ng mga batang iyon at awayin ko pa.

Andali kasing gumawa ng bata, ano? Hindi natin naiisip 'yung kapakanan nila pagkatapos ng 3 taon, 15 taon, 20 taon. Hindi natin naiisip na kung ano 'yung asal natin, siyang napupulot ng nila. Alam ko may malaking pagkukulang ang pamahalaan sa lipunan, pero hindi ito dahilan para hindi natin pagsumikapan ang kapakanan ng sarili natin, ng kapwa natin. Kung gusto mong umasenso ang Pilipino, simulan mo sa sarili mo, sa pamilya mo.

Self-dignity and respect for others. Kung meron tayong lahat noon, kahit mabuhay tayo sa hirap, at least mababawasan tayo ng sakit ng ulo sa araw-araw nating pamumuhay.

***

Reality check. Kasama ako dun sa mga sinesermonan ko. *sigh*

Busy?

Ewan, pero lately, marami akong meeting at appointment. Lumalabas lang ako 'pag kailangan lang. Tulad kanina at kahapon, nakikigamit ako kay Nico ng puter para gawin 'yung trabaho ko for Ang I.n.K. (kasi barok 'yung akin).

Nami-miss ko nang mag-gig. At na-miss kong mag-blog kaya eto ako...

Hello.

Hohum.

Tulog pa ang diwa ko. I need motivation. I need a job/raket.

I need to start working on some sketch studies for the I.n.K. exhibit press kits, not to mention my actual artwork for the August exhibit at Shangri-La Plaza. Nakaka-excite, kasi mape-pressure akong gumawa ng creative output. Kaya lang, I have other worries, like bills to pay, and they're eating me alive.

*sigh*

Labas ko na muna ang sketchpad...

Pictures, as promised.

Super-retro stuff taken last March, dun kina Zarah sa Bulacan. (Nakwento ko na 'ata rito 'yung nangyari nung araw na 'yun.)

Naaalala ko tuloy, masarap 'yung pagkain 'nung araw na 'yun...

Inaasar ko si Paolo nyan, kasi di niya ma-solve 'yung Brainstring ni Zarah.

"Talk to me, tell me your name..."

Bahay ni Jovi. Hehehe...

Nagdasal ng maigi si Joey, nasira 'yung mga pics na kumakanta siya ng 'Boys Don't Cry'. Pero at least may hawak siyang mic dito. Ebidensya na rin 'yan. Hehehe...

Paolo's nth attempt at the Brainstring. (Di rin niya natapos. Hehehe...)

"She bangs, she bangs!"

Ay, ang cute namin! Hahaha... (Shet ang taba ko... bwiset.)

Uy, bukid! Marami niyan kina Zarah.

Wentong walang wenta.

Wala naman talagang major na nangyayari sa buhay ko kaya wala rin mashadong kwento. Hayyy... I need a life.

***

I haven't found the rest of Ichi's kitties ever since my last blog post. I think it's time to assume they didn't make it. :-(

Hindi ako pwedeng maging doktor ng tao o hayop. There's too much heartache involved. Saludo ako sa mga pumili ng propesyong ito.

***

Siguro dapat magpost na lang ako ng mga lumang digicam pics, tutal wala naman akong magawang matino. Sige, gawin ko siguro mamaya. Matutulog muna ako.

How sad. (Part 2)

Ichi hasn't come home yet. Two days ago I recovered her two-week old kittens. One of them was dead already. I transferred them to the grotto area with the other cats. I've taken to feeding them milk via medicine dropper. Not all of them like it, but it seems they don't have a choice.

Yesterday I buried another kitten. The two seemed to be doing so-so, the other one looked like it was dying. This is so depressing. :-(

***

Recently my mom lost four two-month old puppies in four days flat. Cause of death unknown. The uberhyper puppies started dropping like flies. Only one of them is left.

What is going on here???

***

I'm off to check the kittens in a short while.